Busy Week.

Sorry haven't blogged anything for a week, been rather busy trying to get some freedom.

Well I finally got a job to earn my own money and save to move out from here and have my own space. It's working in a small office filing and photocopying for the staff it's rather easy and a start of a career, even if it isn't what I wanted to do in the first place but it is something that will pay the bills when living on my own.

I'm quite excited in living on my own as well as slightly scared but I know it's what I need. Found a few places I wouldn't mind looking at there's one in particular it's a period home down a quite private lane and I am totally in love with it, if only I could afford the price tag a month. Here's a picture of it:

And this costs £700 per calender month and this is why a young person like myself looking to move in on her own would not be able to afford it but it would be a place I would love to own one day.

The more realistic sort of house I would be able to afford at this moment in time is something in the town centre or near by. Here's some pictures of a house I  have seen:

 

As you see it's not the nicest of properties that someone could live in, the kitchen is hideous, BUT sadly that is what I may have to start myself off with.

Anyway, enough about homes my new job is amazing, well one of my colleague is amazing, he is really nice, caring and easy to talk to. Oh and very good looking, I feel happy that I have some eye candy while I'm at work but to be honest I may try and get to know him before I get anymore attracted to him. Last thing I want is to get attracted to him then realise he is a complete and utter twat! Mind my language. Lol.

I'm already touching the freedom with my finger tips because it's at arm reach, to be honest it's always has been but I've been too afriad to to reach and achieve it before now. I have made the decision it is now actually going to happen, no matter who or what it takes, I will not let anything stop me know.

That includes my parents, I need to start standing up them and learn never to back down in an argument and not be the perfect daughter they have always wanted because no teenager is perfect and every parent should know that. I need to show my personality a little bit more through my clothing and how I act instead of pretending.

Things to achieve this next week:

• Find somewhere to live.
• Stand up to my Mum.
• Talk to Dylan.
• Get a new look for myself.

Introduction

I'm new to all this online blogging but to tell you the truth I think its better than keeping a dairy in your bedroom with people snooping for example my mum.

Anyways, my names Lucy and I'm 18 living a life as a normal teenager or am I? I don't feel like I am like everyone else my own age. You ask why? Well mainly because I've never tired drugs, never been out under aged drinking and the most embarrassing thing is I've never had sex let alone even seen a boy naked, well not in person.

I feel like I'm missing out on it all but is it really apart of teenage life sex, drink and drugs? I would love to have sex with someone but never found the right one or is that even possible? I have so many questions about it but there isn't anyone I can really talk to. My mum won't talk to me about it, she's scared she'll be loosing her little girl, I know most parents are like that but mine are the most over protective parents anyone I know have ever met.

My mum won't even allow me to have my own front door key, she has to know where I am going what time I will be there to and from and how am I getting home. It's starting to annoy me because I see all my friends moving out into there own place and having freedom but then again they have had freedom alot longer than I have.

I think it's about time I stand up for myself and start living my life starting NOW!!